oh, mexico.

i don't think i will ever get the chance to say

half as many of the things

that i'd like to say to you.

can nothing be done?

it's OK.

i don't have anything really important to say.

which is why i'm still on the phone.

i don't want to distract you from your other conversation.

we'll talk later?

(she laughs)

aaaaaaaaand we're off!

the phone.

these are the reasons we'll never talk.

(she laughs)

as you wish, ma cher!

this isn't my fault.

this is my fault.

i'm beginning to feel 

that maybe

i'm the only one who has anything important to say.

no,

that's not what i meant.

it's OK.

(she laughs, and clears her throat, musters the courage to speak again)

perhaps i'm the only one who has anything pressing

to say

so

we don't talk

because

it's more my agenda

and

why would we talk

if we have nothing to talk about?

nothing.

and

"talk"

sounds so scary and daunting and foreboding and hard

and no good.

which is the opposite of what i want.

(she laughs)

i'm not too worried about it...

it seems to be a matter of timing more than anything.

and i want to have the conversation in person.

but in person

might get messy.

i feel like it would be better.

but then it can't be make believe

or forgiven

or forgotten.

forgiven?

why would i want to forget? 

because i have a bad feeling.

then why not wait until it stops being a bad feeling

and talk when it's a good feeling?

despite what you may think about our friendship,

i don't intend to go, anyway.

**anywhere?

(she laughs, tired of hearing about her friends)

i know this is really terrible stupid timing

but it's sort of funny

because i have to go right now.

laughing?

(she screams)

no

so hard that you can't stop long enough to breathe?

no.

it's easy for you to say.

it

s all easy

for you to say.

until one day you've got a beau for real-

i'm sorry

-and i can't stand to be around you 

anylonger.

so

i don't know if i can wait, anymore

**for a good feeling to come around

because good vibes are deceiving.

and hardly ever shared.

or requited.

and

you should go.

hopefully i'll get to talk to you again before the night is through.

(she laughs, and laughs, and laughs because:

it's so easy for you to say, but you don't, and i wonder)