so desperately needed,
urgently needed,
matter-of-fact[ly] needed,
only when they're heartfelt,
and wanted,
dreamed,
impassioned.
not lulled,
drug,
soon to be buried,
even sooner to be forgot.
but- those words are the only
worth anything.
the only determinants
of a perchance happier future,
career, state of mind...
write, i must.
though i shudder.